Monthly Archives: August 2012

Introvert Illness

I just got back from a great float trip with friends. It was awesome. Just 4 couples hanging out, having fun, all day Saturday and half the day Sunday. 

But between the soreness from paddling all day, the slight sun burn, and the exhaustion I always get when I hang out with people for that long, today I find myself in a slump. I’m in a bad mood, and I can tell. I hate when you KNOW you are in a bad mood, but can’t do anything besides try not to bite anyones head off.

Thankfully, I work with my best friend, and she always knows just what to say and when not to say anything at all. I also got to have lunch with a good friend I haven’t talked to in awhile. Between the two of them, and watching the new Drop Dead Diva when I get home, I think I will make it.

I find in these times that it becomes very hard for me to connect to God, and to feel His love. Because, I know, of the aforementioned issues I’m dealing with emotionally today, I’ve felt the hope in having a child slip away. Why can’t I seem to remember all the things God tells me, and apply them to my life. He tells me He has me, that I can trust in what He has planned for me, but my stupid human brain forgets that the moment I start to feel bad.

Ugh. I hate my fickle heart sometimes.